Avoiding Reality.
It's approximately 6:07 as I am typing this. I had a shift at work but I had to call in and say I was unable to work. My lower back is still under a lot of pain. I guess I don't feel it as I am working because I keep feeding my self pills that do more than AVOID REALITY!!! ...And yes, they really do make you feel like you're better. SO when you start working hard, the medication wears off and you're in fuckin' pain. Now you're probably wonderinng. What the fuck is this kid doing typing on his web log if he's under so much pain...I must confess, I have avoided this reality of pain and takened more prescription muscle inflammatory medication and other such pills with big words I can't remember. I know I shouldn't rely on it but I am given no choice. Anyway, my head is feeling very light and i think my medication has hit me, so back to bed to sleep all day, then later wake up for my physiotheropy. This time i think it's better to go without being medicated because then i keep thinking im better or uncertain If i am, and i do not and cannot give them a honest answer when they ask.





